So tonight was my first institute class in a really long time. I'm taking Latter Day Saint history. I took it my freshman year of college and it is still taught by the same teacher. Loved him then and I love him now. He is so good and know so much about church history. Loralee and David have been taking his class for over a year now and I decided with my experiment of being a dutiful church-goin girl I should sign up. I love how he talks about controversial things in history but explains them so well. A lot of things we learn kind of shake me up a little bit but it's so interesting. Also, besides Loralee and David being in the class two friends from church are in my class and I had no idea so yay! It was great.
I was supposed to meet with my bishop to get a temple recommend (first one since I was thirteen) after class but my friends invited me to see Bride Wars with them. I wasn't necessarily dieing to see the movie but I needed to be out and social so I changed my appointment with the bishop and went. Maybe that was a mistake because after the movie (had a great time up to this point) as soon as I pulled out onto the street I got in the most pissed off mood. I have no idea why. I was just really angry all of a sudden. I did really have to pee so was rushing home and there was some road rage but this seemed different. I don't know. I was mad when I pulled up to my house and saw that Tam had parked in front of the house (where I have been parking) when the last two weeks she's parked in the drive-way no matter who she's blocking. So I parked in the driveway behind Jen. I leave before her anyway, but it really bugged me. I stomped up to our trash can and stomped it all the way down the drive to the curb then I stomped up to our locked door (seriously our door is locked at 9:45pm! whatever!) and then I stomp into the kitchen and turn off the light that has been on for who knows how long because no body in this house but me knows how to turn off a damn light and then stomp into my room and throw down my bag and off my coat and stomp into the bathroom. See what I mean. Out of no where.
I'm relatively calm now but there is still some remnants of rage left. I really almost didn't want to do a post, read my scriptures, pray, brush my teeth. Just let everything fall apart tonight, but I brushed my teeth and as soon as I am done with this post I will read my scriptures and then pray. It may not be a very good prayer but I will do it.
Anyway, back to what this is really supposed to be about...Yay for institute.
2 comments:
I'm sorry you had a mood swing! Yikes! I hate those, too. I was going to call you last night, as soon as I rode my stationary bike, but then someone called me and we talked for two hours. I wish I would have called you before they called me. I'm impressed that you stuck to your experiment even though you didn't feel like it. Moments like those show your dedication. Keep up the good work!
Way to go - sticking to your goals during a very hard time. I am glad you share your 'grateful' posts with us. I still haven't started mine. UGH!
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