Cool Guys to Work With

I've been having some pretty interesting conversations with my coworkers. They are both male and married since forever. They like to give me advice on what to look for in guys and other aspects of my life. They want me to be happy. I've kind of known, but never really thought about it that much until today, how Peter Priesthood they both are. Never watch 'R' rated movies, would never have thought to make out with a girl just to make out with her, and read scriptures and pray every day. Okay not all those things make them Peter Priesthood, but it's what we discussed today and if you had heard how they said things you would agree.

The thing is they are so fun to talk to and are pretty much non-judgmental. At least not of me, and you know me, I'm pretty honest. Today I talked about how I could really use a good kissing session with someone I was somewhat into but if we dated or not it wouldn't matter. It's been a long long long long time, okay. They argued against it, of course. Okay really by this time I was just talking to my boss. He argued against it, but I never felt like he thought less of me that I wanted that. He's been married since he was 22 and I think guys who have done that just don't get it when you get to be my age and not married. I joke around with him all the time. I said today that even though I would like to be married someday, I'm not sure I'm ready. So not really looking for Mr. Right, but sure could use a Mr. Right now. And he maybe Mr. Right now could turn into Mr. Right, but no pressure.

Anyway we laugh a lot and I love their advice. I can tell they genuinely care about me, my salvation, my happiness, my career and all that. I finished the Book of Mormon on Sunday after probably five years of reading it. Maybe less, I'm not sure. They both gave me high fives. One of them had been on my back about finishing for a few months now so he was excited. It was sweet. I like that I get along with them so well. It really makes this change in jobs so much better.

Homemade Christmas Presents

Okay, here are the things I made for Christmas presents. Not as many as I had originally intended and there is one still to be finished. I'm pretty pleased with how they turned out.


I made DVDs for my friends that I went to the British Isles with. It has video and picture slideshows of our trip. They really liked it. We watched it together on New Years Eve.


I made magnets for the girls in my book club and for a few other friends and family members. They really turned out cute.


These are throw pillows that I made for Melanie. I've been wanting to make them for her for a long time and this Christmas was the perfect opportunity. I found the fabric at Ikea and I bought pillows from D.I. to be the pillow forms.



These are the two maternity shirts I embellished for Loralee. It was pretty fun making them and I may embellish some of my own t-shirts now. It's pretty easy.

Anyway, nothing too amazing, but they were well received. Now I just have to attempt to make a temple bag for my mom and I'll post about that when it's done.

Things Gotta Change

In analyzing the funk, depression or whatever you want to call it (I like hormonal imbalance) I've been going through the last couple weeks okay years, but it's been more acute recently, I've decided I'm tired of it. Not to say that just because I have decided that that it's gonna go away, but things need to change and I need to be more proactive to change them. My first try was creating a profile on eharmony.com. It was kind of a free trial for a few days and filled out (or mostly Melanie filled out) all the questions. The next day there were several matches. Unfortunately, I couldn't see their picture unless I subscribed and I hadn't decided to do that. Anyway one guy started up a kind of communication that I just needed to answer some more survey like questions. No big deal, right? Well, I freaked out a little and with all the stress from work building I couldn't handle it and closed my eharmony account. I'm not ready for online dating, yet. Plus, I'm trying to be better about spending and didn't really want to pay the money for it. I want to try the real world first.

Because really, I'm not trying. I spend most of my time with girls. And if guys are present they are usually with one of the girls. I know very few men in my ward, probably because I don't go to any activities. I've felt a little above them, but I'm gonna get over that. In my last ward, I went to a lot more activities and I knew a lot more guys. Not that that got me anywhere but I'll get into that in a second. So I plan to go to more ward activities this year. At least one FHE a month and I want to join the ward choir.

Now just attending isn't going to be enough. This is gonna be the hard part, I've got to be social. I'm not social. I get nervous about what to say. I'm not good at small talk. But I am determined to practice, practice, practice. And if putting myself out there doesn't work, which it might not, I'll ask guys out. I need to practice dating so that it's not this huge deal or so serious. Just fun. So I'll ask guys I wouldn't mind getting to know better but just want to have a good time. This last part might not happen for some time, because a good friend told me today when I was talking about this that I have a confidence problem. It's true I do. So I'm hoping going to more activities and being more social will help with that.

Other things to change. I've got to be more on top of things at work. My new boss expects a lot from me because he believes in me. It's been a long time since I've had that and I don't want to let him down.

My living situation. Though I've tried to change what I can of what I don't like about where I live, it hasn't helped. There's only so much I can do and take. So I might move this year. I've been looking for a while, but until I can get my spending under control (another thing to change) somethings aren't turning out. And I already know I can't move for the sake of moving. I love a lot of the comforts I have here. I'm going to look into buying and see how that might work or just getting a place to myself, but still renting or anything. I need to seriously look into it. A change in that would be good for me I think.

I hope that all this will help, if not get me a man, then at least add to my happiness. That is most important. I can see me totally not following through all this but I'm gonna try to. I already plan on going to FHE next week, sledding, should be fun.